Fasting from Social Media

Going to medical school, in some ways, is like going back to high school with school every day again. It’s a change from the style of learning you’ve become accustomed to. Additionally, you may have more classes at once than you had during college. received_10206928523001811 However, the amount of information you have to know (and the detail to which you are expected to know it) makes college seem like it was a walk in the park. However, we are encouraged to look for activities that will help reduce stress other than studying and I can’t deny that social media is on top of my list. It’s one of the most effective stress-reducing activities for me. When I’m too tired to function and then try to scroll my feed on Instagram, I become awake and energetic instantaneously. Haha. Amazing how it can also save you from dozing off. But, I didn’t realize that social media was also one of the reasons why I always compare myself and still feel inadequate in my abilities as a friend, sister, classmate, and daughter.

Social media was also one of the reasons why I’m so addicted to beauty products (nothing wrong with trying to look good and feel good) because I love hearing people compliment me especially my eyebrows (Lol! Sanguine problems.), and I hate to admit that it’s the reason why I’m so addicted to online shopping. I always purchase clothes and things thrice a month and wouldn’t mind if I’m carrying an empty wallet. Other than that, I was surprised to know that I can survive eating once or twice a daily for a person who really has a big appetite. All of these things are the work of the enemy. I knew what I did was unhealthy but I still continued doing it.

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Thank God for Your neurons

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Lord Jesus,

I thank You for my neurons. For my well functioning dendrites and axons.

You created my brain for the purpose of bringing glory to Your name. I do not want my brain to be conformed to the patterns of this world, instead I ask You to enter all areas of my brain that You might give me the ability to process academic and spiritual wisdom from your Holy Spirit.

I believe that you created my inner most being and that my brain is fearfully and wonderfully made by your hand.

Lord I repent of all the times I have not regarded my brain and my learning abilities as a gift from You. I ask you to forgive me for the negative thoughts and words that I have spoken against my own brain and learning abilities.

I repent of trying to solve my learning problems through my own efforts rather than turning to receive your love, grace and healing touch first.

I pray that I will not have a Spirit of fear about learning new things. I accept your gift of the spirit of power, love and self-discipline into my brain.

Give me the Spirit of wisdom and revelation that I might succeed in school and to know You better.

Thank you, Lord, for using me. For choosing me.

Thank you for blessing me with Your bounty. Your favor. Your love.

I feel more peaceful and fulfilled than I ever have in my entire life.

I am learning so much. Growing so much.

You are so good to me, Lord Jesus.

I don’t deserve Your love, Your grace, Your favor nor Your blessing.

Yet, you still love me.

Your little doctor in the making,

Delbeth

I’m going to be like him someday!

 

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Dad,

I could start his letter by thanking you for many things but I would like to say first that there are no words to actually describe how much I love you and how thankful I am for your life. I am so blessed to have you as my role model, hero and father.

Thank you papa for providing shelter to cover our heads, food to feed us, things we actually need and for allowing us to have good education. Thank you for loving, leading and guiding us. Thank you also for loving mom because from you, I’ve learned what it means to love your spouse. Thank you for sacrificing for us-waking up in the middle of the night to respond to emergency calls, making rounds, going home late and for always waiting patiently for your seven daughters plus wife to get finish from dressing up every occassion. Even until now, dad, you chraracter amazes me and that’s the reason why I respect and look up to you.

Even though you are a busy man, you still never as in ever fail to give time for us, you ALWAYS give time for us like how you also give time for treating your patients. Papa, I can never fully express my gratitude to you. You will always be the first man I will ever love. I would be completely lost in this world without you and Mama. God knew exactly what He was doing when He chose you to be my father!

(Don’t mind my stressed face, please. Haha.)

Mondays get me down

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If you are like me, you probably start the week a bit slow. I used to hum a song that says Mondays get me down. Perhaps it’s because of the hangover from the weekend’s gimiks with friends, activities you joined from church or school or probably, your past time at your house. I had to force myself out of bed and take a shower. Mondays find me lazily preparing for school in the morning and yawning through the professor’s lectures the rest of the day. I usually can’t concentrate. No brilliant ideas surfaced, and my schoolwork was so-so. I’d finally get perked up in the afternooon but, by then, the day had practically gone by. One cup of coffee from the nearest coffee shop should do the trick.

Later, I realized that it’s not Mondays that get me down. It’s my attitude. If I truly wanted to honor God with my studies, then I would pursue excellence no matter what. I won’t write term papers, answer exams or listen to the professor just so I would pass the course. I would do all these because I am serving the Lord.

And here’s what’s encouraging. Even if we should not expect something in return, God promises us a reward for serving Him. To get the highest grade or a teacher’s commendation or our classmates’ admiration or an exemption from the finals are perhaps some of those rewards. But the joy that our accomplishments bring to our parents and the honor it gives God are the best returns for our hard work.

Do your work willingly, as though you were serving the Lord himself. In fact, the Lord Christ is the one you are really serving, and you know He will reward you. Colossians 3:23, 24

(Devotion: Real time)

My life as a Medical Student

 

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Before I started medical school I really had no idea what a typical day would be like. Would I go to class? How much class? Do I just study all day? What else is there to do? All I knew is that I will be studying in one of the #1 Medical school in the Philippines and I’m pretty sure it would be full of challenges. So, for those of you who are curious on what my life is as a medical student. Here it is:

1. Change of lifestyle

I have been in a current situation where hanging out, chilling, and doing other fun stuff is no longer listed in my planner. I used to love hanging out with friends in shopping malls, movie houses, and coffee shops. Anywhere, you name it. Unfortunately, those days were over.

Monday to Sunday, I study. From the moment I wake up, I take a shower, dress up to go to school, attend my Problem Based Learning class, go home, study ‘til dawn and then sleep again and wake up again. Yhup. The same cycle everyday. No, it’s not depriving myself from all the good things in life but it’s more like of a discipline. Self-discipline can be considered a type of training, creating new habits of thoughts and actions toward improving yourself and reaching your goal.

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2. As you build self-discipline, you build time management.

In Medicine, you are given a bulk of chapters to read and if you don’t finish reading the set of chapters given to you, trust me, you’ll be in misery. Why? Another set of chapters are given to you the next day and you’ll be left behind. When you do not have control over your own self, how can you control time? So, time management is important though it can become an overwhelming task.

 

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What are your dreams?

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Each and everyone of us has God-given dreams and desires. Big ones or small ones. Without such dreams, there will be no ambition to chase. No goal to reach. We will all be nothing without dreams.

When I was young, becoming a nurse/doctor was my dream.When I graduated College, I felt that pursuing Medicine was a calling so I took the NMAT exam out of blue. When I knew about the results that I passed a month after, I was all the more excited that I was already close to my dreams. I immediately inquired and applied at my dream school which was the no.1 Medical School in our country.

Fast forward. After the first month of class, I was in culture shock. I was exhausted. I wasn’t well adjusted. Have you experienced being enthusiastic about something recently, but then you realized that the joy you once had was gone? I was like a kid chasing an ice cream truck to get my favorite strawberry ice cream. Once I bought it, I held the luscious ice cream cone with delight then immediately devoured it and then minutes after being satiated, gone. I hardly noticed the feeling of excitement. Never did I expected that studying would really take much of my time. Time for myself, time for family, time for social life, even my Quiet time with the Lord was affected. However, aside from the bouts of stressful days, sleepless nights, caffeine overload days in order to finish reviewing four books with a bulk of chapters, I’m still grateful for it. Why?

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Paul said in the Book of Galatians, “Let us not be weary in doing good, for at the proper time we will reap a harvest if we don’t give up.” There will always be a spectrum of good and bad days. It will always be part of our lives. It’s like taking a surprise quiz and finding out whether you pass or not. Things won’t always work out the way we plan. But we shouldn’t be afraid because even if inconvenient situations catch us off guard, it doesn’t  catch our God off guard. These things are planned and divinely placed in our path for a reason. God uses circumstances to draw us closer to Him and to change us to be more like Christ.  It’s these moments where our faith is tested and we look down to see whether we are standing on rock or sand. Do we really believe that God is in control of all the details of our life? Do we really believe that His grace is sufficient to get us through the day? If we then continue to respond right in every way, if we allow tough times to shape and mold us- we will turn out to be better and brighter version of ourselves.

Dreams come with great responsibility. It is just not enough to dream and not do something about it. You have to work hard for it. Sweat. Tears. Blood. I always do believe that you reap what you sow.

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So whenever you feel like giving up? Pray. Pour out your heart and soul through prayer because even when you pour out your heart to a friend, they may or may not accurately interpret the cry of your soul. God always hears, always understands, always listens with compassion.

But remember this, this is what David meant when he said delight yourself in the Lord and He will give you the desires of your heart.

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Delighting in Him is a command and a condition to His promise-to give you your heart’s desires. Prayer is not for gratifying our natural desires. Prayer is for satisfying the desires of people who are devoted to God’s desires. It should coincide with God’s plans. “If we ask anything according to His will.”

Just trust and believe in Him. You never know, just a few more days of believing, another few weeks of doing the right thing, another few months of staying in faith, and you could see great results!

Keep standing and keep believing because you are closer than you think to fulfilling every dream and desire He has placed inside of you!