“Surviving Medicine was not by my own strength but by the grace of God.”
Studying Medicine is very challenging. It is really not a walk in a park, it’s not a bed of roses, it’s more of being thrown with sticks and stones but not literally speaking. Medicine was difficult and saying this word is an understatement of describing what medicine is like. It tests you physically, emotionally, spiritually, and mentally! What made the experience hard? Imagine the whole 4 years of limited social life just to finish bulk of chapters consisting of a hundred or more pages to pass the exam and staying hopeful despite countless of failed exams.
The hardest was during senior clerkship where you are the lowest form of animal in the animal food chain. It means you do all the gerbil work. However, clerkship can also be fun if you choose to look at it in a different perspective. Surprisingly, it is the complete opposite of my apprehensions since day 1. But, I’d say I wouldn’t trade those sleepless nights of studying, endless endorsements, unlimited procedures and monitoring, exciting workshops, good and bad experiences, unexpected relationships that for sure last for a lifetime, and countless of lessons for it molded me into a better version of myself.
It wasn’t easy- this calling of becoming an instrument to save lives. However, all of it were part of the equipping and empowering. I give all the credit to The Mighty One who gave me the strength to endure this medical journey.
“Seek first His kingdom and His righteousness, and all these things will be given to you. Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself.”
This is my life verse. Every time I try to live my life in accordance with this passage, I’ve seen God do things which I thought weren’t possible. As I look back after the years of never-ending struggle in medicine, I realize again that my success in being able to overcome those trials so far has come from seeking the Lord, not from trying to achieve out of my own human strength.